You want to be
in two places at once,
or two strong people
each want you
in their places.
Something about this
rips out your lungs.
Though you have two,
they’re connected.
Breathe,
until you settle
all where you are.
You want to be
in two places at once,
or two strong people
each want you
in their places.
Something about this
rips out your lungs.
Though you have two,
they’re connected.
Breathe,
until you settle
all where you are.
Once I chose what was owed to me
over another person’s suffering,
and I haven’t yet felt my way
into either of us forgiving the other.
Sisters,
Forgive yourselves
for not wanting children.
For not being able
to have children.
For it not turning out
the way you’d planned.
You don’t have to wish me
a Happy Mother’s Day
like it’s the thing I’m
longing for.
I’ve tried to live at zero
Don’t spend any money
Don’t ask any favors
Live up to your debts
But there isn’t any math
for human variables